We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things……
Another year has started. 2012 is here and our farm and family remains ever grateful to the Lord.
This past year brought our family much trial. By January 4th of 2011, our year drastically changed. My father was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. Suddenly all the best made plans, goals and dreams for the year were instantly changed.
The conventional doctors offered no hope. He pursued alternative cancer treatments. As the year took shape, my dad put up a good fight against a very aggressive form of cancer. By October, after a long, hard fight, my dad entered Glory. Seeing my dad communicate with God while in the depths of pain and being there holding my dad’s hand when Jesus walked in the room and took him home, was an unbelievable, amazing, life-changing experience. Our family has experienced the pain of a big loss. While there have been very difficult days and while there are still difficult days ahead, I know God is faithful.
I think of my dad often. I think of heaven often. I ponder things of life in a different way now. I’m learning to be grateful for the trials last year. I’m entering this year a different person. My father is in heaven where there is no more pain and no more tears. My hope of heaven is stronger than ever before. My reason for living life here on the earth, has greater mission and meaning. My dad lived outloud and always reminded me that we were put here on earth to glorify Christ and do great things for the Kingdom as long as we had life and breath in us. In his death, he reminded me that heaven is indeed very real and that life is short…. you have a duty to live… outloud for Christ…while you still have today. Thanks Dad!
It would take me pages to write about last year. This year I hope to pick back up journaling again and I’m sure my perspectives and ponderings this year will be greatly affected by last years trials. Through it all, Thanks be to God.
‘Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise